sreda, 22. februar 2017

Crying over a Peanut Butter


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Hey there!

It's been quite a while since my last post. Many things has change, however I do feel that I am again at the same point as I've been in September. At August I broke up with a guy who was a narcisist and the relationship was really psycologically exhausting. When I look back at it, I think it was not so difficult for me to overcome the breakup stress, once I decided and really saw that the relationship was bad for me and my health.

About a month after a breakup I met very nice guy at the job. He was exactly my ex's opposite. We started slowly, since he was aware that I needed time and everything was just perfect. I found a person to talk to and I slowly fell in love with him. With him everything was so easy. People around us told me that we are made for each other.

torek, 30. avgust 2016

The Breakup

Actually the last breakup hasn't really happened yet. But I am in that limbo, when I know it will happen, we are just avoiding the conversation. Actually he is the master of avoiding it. And I am not the person who can end something without really discussing it and trying everything to solve it. I really cannot just walk away and predent nothing happened. Maybe this is my problem. And I know it is, because it hurts me and it makes me angry not to be able to just walk away. Is this problem of every women or just mine?

Well, our beginning was great. I couldn't imagine it any better. I couldn't dream it any better. We've been friends for over a year and there was also that feeling of attraction. Of belonging. When we were togheter time flied. We could speak about anything. And the spark was there. I couldn't wish for anything more. Especially when he confessed his feelings. And kissed me on the beach under the moonlight. Like in a movie, right? Well, it hasn't lasted for a long time. After a very intesive start (and me beeing head over hills; honestly I cannot remember when it was the last time I feel over someone so much), the well known ''cave'' period came. If you don't know what that is, than better read the famous John Gray's book Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. If you haven't heard about the book yet, I really recommend to get one, because it will help you to understand the other gender better and to improve a communication. You can get one here.

Hello World!

A new page in my life and a brand new blog. My very first and very personal blog. I hope you will enjoy it and help me create it. 

So, who am I?? Well, an almost 30 years old single woman. I live and study abroad. I've recently finished an almost 4 years long relationship with a wonderful guy and even more recently a short love story with not so wonderful guy. I can say that the last year of my life has resembled a pretty shaky and fast drive. Full of changes, emotional drama and well....even I don't exactly know how I got trought it (well, I am not over it exactly, but I hope that the most of drama is over for now).

And now what?? Well, I've started to learn about myself, about psichology, positive thinking, astrology... I guess personal growth will be my number one priority in the next few months. Since summer has almost finished, I am frankly affraid what winter will bring. Sunny days give me a lot of energy, especially a positive one and help me stay positive in general, but dark and long winter nights will definitely be a challenge.

And of course, approaching my 30th year and still no sight of Mr. Perfect... Well, I would like to say that I love being single and that I am having so much fun!! Yes, I do, but it's so much funnier doing things togheter! Not alone all the time. (I've been single or in a long distance relatioship the most time of my adulthood), but I do crave (I've never felt something like this before) some phisicaly presence and connection. Well, they say, don't worry, you will find a perfect guy, because you are an intelligent, funny, perfect girl...but where the hell has he been hiding for so long??

Until the next time.

xoxo